ambivalence... (Oct 14, '08 11:04 AM)

i don't know what i'm feeling...
somehow... i feel in my heart a mixed feeling of emotions...
yes! i feel happy... but there is a little sadness...
i feel convinced... but there is confusion...
why??
why am i feeling like this?
i know no one could understand me...
i know they'll just laugh at me when they read this...
i know i'm the only one who could somehow understand what i feel...
but do i really know???
i'm just naive...
but eventhough i feel this...
i'm more happy than sad...
i'm more convinced than confused...
or am i just convincing myself???
or am i just thinking so much???