like a bird

Sitting outside looking at a busy street
Watching people walking, talking
Rain keeps pouring heavy seems like the gods were angry.
 Strong winds swaying my hair
And here am I thinking...
 What kind of life am I living
 it seems like I am nothing
 Feeling worthless yet here am I
 Sitting... thinking...
 Why am I like this?
What am I doing right here?

 I saw a young bird leaping on the ground
 Trying to fly yet can't seem to go to high
never giving up despite the wind and rain
 It's all alone yet so strong...
Then I started thinking...
 How I wish I could be that bird
Trying hard despite of everything
Doing things just by him
Never giving up nor hiding..

If only I have guts to fly
not ever wondering what's ahead
If only I could learn to struggle on my own
Not getting scared being all alone
 If only I...
 Would stop thinking...
What am I doing right now?
Why am I like this...
Living a life so worthless
Thinking I am nothing
 If only I could just think
That God has a purpose for me
That God would never leave me
All I have to do is pray...
That someday...
like a bird I can fly away

What my Heart Convey

What my Heart Convey...

Tears are not enough to ease away the pains of the heart… because if crying liters of tears could take away all the pain… I would definitely be the first one to do it!

At times, you never appreciate the value of a person when they are just near… We tend to set them aside or even left them... We tend to be at ease that were doing fine...Coz we know no matter what, they will always be there when we got back...  But when we got back and they're already gone… we always wonder why they left.

Unrequited Love ... For Him

These are the words I wanted to tell him... But eventually, these words would always remain hidden in my heart and only in these songs could I express how I feel...

Wouldn't Change A Thing by Demi Lovato ft. Stanfour
 ---- No matter how you see me or even though I'm invincible to you...
 ---- Even if she's the only one for you and I'm just a simple girl at the side...
 ---- I wouldn't change a thing

The Art of Letting Go
----- It's just hard to let you go... I don't know why?
----- Even though I've tried so many times, but every time I do
----- I wasn't just successful because the more I push my self, the more I just keep on falling...
----- I guess it's just so hard to let go of someone, who from the beginning was never yours
----- And never even once will ever be...

Pain In My Heart
----- I just could explain this pain I'm feeling.
----- Because of this love, this heart I can't help but be foolish.
----- I hate the feeling but the feeling wouldn't just go away easy.

When I see you Smile
----- Seeing you smile, I feel that my day is bright.
----- But sadly, those smiles are not mine.
----- I could only wished that it was for me and appreciate it in a distance.
----- But no matter what, just keep smiling. Even if it's not for me, even if it never even once.

Can't Cry Hard Enough
----- I'm crying... Can you even hear me?
----- I've always tried to be strong in front of you, have you noticed?
----- I've always hoped, that even once could I lean on your shoulder and cry.
----- Can I tell you my pain? Can I cry Hard enough without being ashamed?

I Don't Have the Heart
----- I know you don't love me, I can feel it.
----- But so stupid am I for hoping.
----- Hoping for something I know that is so impossible.
----- Hoping for something that requires a miracle.
----- But can you tell me this... I know my heart would be so touched. Even for once...
----- Even though it means I need to give up... I need to stop.

I Can't Make You Love Me
----- So true, no matter what I do, you're heart won't even budge.
----- I'll always be someone so ordinary in front of you.
----- I'll always be someone who could only watch you from afar, someone who could
----- only follow from your back.
----- Someone who could only hope... Because I can't really make you love me.