Dark Clouds

Just how my heart feels...
The season seems the same...
It's having dark clouds again
and sooner or later rain will pour on the window pane.
How good will it be to feel if the sun would shine for me.
But this kind of weather
just keeps on making me gloomy as ever.
And seeing those angry waves
makes me feel scared like a naive.
I don't know why
but it's just what I feel
But no matter what...
I'll still stay as positive as I can be
that someday...
there will come a good day,
a rainbow after the rain
and behind the clouds, a shining sun.

like a bird

Sitting outside looking at a busy street
Watching people walking, talking
Rain keeps pouring heavy seems like the gods were angry.
 Strong winds swaying my hair
And here am I thinking...
 What kind of life am I living
 it seems like I am nothing
 Feeling worthless yet here am I
 Sitting... thinking...
 Why am I like this?
What am I doing right here?

 I saw a young bird leaping on the ground
 Trying to fly yet can't seem to go to high
never giving up despite the wind and rain
 It's all alone yet so strong...
Then I started thinking...
 How I wish I could be that bird
Trying hard despite of everything
Doing things just by him
Never giving up nor hiding..

If only I have guts to fly
not ever wondering what's ahead
If only I could learn to struggle on my own
Not getting scared being all alone
 If only I...
 Would stop thinking...
What am I doing right now?
Why am I like this...
Living a life so worthless
Thinking I am nothing
 If only I could just think
That God has a purpose for me
That God would never leave me
All I have to do is pray...
That someday...
like a bird I can fly away

If Only Love Goes Easily

If only love goes?
When I have loved him for years and he's the only one I've been longing for.
And from the moment I wake up he's the first thing that fill my mind
He's the one I hope to dream when I sleep.
That even wide awake my mind wanders from reality.
Having my own fantasy of you and me.

I've been so in love but felt so sad
that love was all I had.
Coz you were not mine but somebody else's
Somebody else's...
owns the heart that I've longed
Somebody... not me...
But I'm okay... I'm fine...
If only love goes easily
I can be alright as time passed by


I can only look at you and be satisfied
to see you smile and happy with her
even if it hurts this much, I'll endure
Hoping someday, you'll know my heart
even if you won't reciprocate
just let me say...
I never meant to feel this way
If only love would just go away

I know I'm such a fool...
But I can't stop my heart,
can't let it end what it's feeling
So hope you would understand
but for now just let me be
Be a fool in loving you

Coz I will be alright as time passed by
If only love goes easily

What my Heart Convey

What my Heart Convey...

Tears are not enough to ease away the pains of the heart… because if crying liters of tears could take away all the pain… I would definitely be the first one to do it!

At times, you never appreciate the value of a person when they are just near… We tend to set them aside or even left them... We tend to be at ease that were doing fine...Coz we know no matter what, they will always be there when we got back...  But when we got back and they're already gone… we always wonder why they left.