no one would care

i know i'm emotionally unstable... And most of the time i have difficulty balancing my feelings and what to show in the outside. I wanted to show it, to share it with others and to have someone who would try to comfort without judging me even just for a short moment. But... There's no one their... And the sad part at time is... you thought there would someone who would come... not knowing that their purpose is not making you feel at ease but they even add insult to your already severed injury... Some may even judge you... Telling you that it seems it was not like you acting that way... So now I'd rather keep it all in my mind than share it... so that I would be able to stay away from ridicule... because when you try your hardest to be understood by other people the more it becomes the opposite and the more you get hurt... So it's better to stay hidden and away because I know no one would ever care if I feel hurt and bleeding inside... That's just what it is...

when I feel tired

There are times dat i feel tired of things happening to my life. But then when I tried to look back, there are three things that struck me... 1st are the people cheering for me 2nd God who never given up on me and keep staying by my side always and 3rd the realization that I have walked a long way and yet haven't even reach the middle... So why would I feel exhausted now and give up when I have a long way to run to reach my goal... And achieve what was destined to me...

october 2 2010 compile

when the feeling is gone... You can only remember the person but the feelings and emotions that was intended for the person have all vanished! But the sad part is you still act the way you were so that change won't be that much evident... This way... You're heart will have a reason to beat and that reason is you still continue to care for that person for you to want to see that person is happy ... oct 2 2010



i wanted to cry but why can't tears fall... I want to feel something... I want to be angry... To feel pain... To get hurt but I can't feel anything... I'm acting out as if I'm hurt but the truth is ... My heart is empty... I just wanted to say sorry just because I know I did something and it's the right thing that I should do but deep in my heart I don't know if its the way I should do. ------- Oct 2 2010




I keep on writing and writing what I feel but I can't say it all out loud... And if I do say it... I know no one would still listen. No one cares how you feel... You would only be looking stupid to say it out bcoz you'll only get laugh at and be ridiculed by people. And no one would ever understand you, they'll just stare at you like a crazy bastard... ------- Oct 2 2010




stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

october 2 2010 compile

when the feeling is gone... You can only remember the person but the feelings and emotions that was intended for the person have all vanished! But the sad part is you still act the way you were so that change won't be that much evident... This way... You're heart will have a reason to beat and that reason is you still continue to care for that person for you to want to see that person is happy ... oct 2 2010



i wanted to cry but why can't tears fall... I want to feel something... I want to be angry... To feel pain... To get hurt but I can't feel anything... I'm acting out as if I'm hurt but the truth is ... My heart is empty... I just wanted to say sorry just because I know I did something and it's the right thing that I should do but deep in my heart I don't know if its the way I should do. ------- Oct 2 2010




I keep on writing and writing what I feel but I can't say it all out loud... And if I do say it... I know no one would still listen. No one cares how you feel... You would only be looking stupid to say it out bcoz you'll only get laugh at and be ridiculed by people. And no one would ever understand you, they'll just stare at you like a crazy bastard... ------- Oct 2 2010




stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

oct 1, 2010

being solitary means having a time of your own to figure out things that you haven't noticed to yourself when there are a lot of people surrounding you giving comments on what you did and the way you act

september 29 2010

Sometimes you need to hear it strait from other people to realize that you've been acting stupid!