My PraYEr

I'm scared! It may be a negative thing but its the only reason that motivate me for now... ANd this is the only way that makes me feel at ease... Pls. Help me God... You're the only one I can lean to... Now... That I think that I'M on my own and no one to be there with... Pls give me the courage and strength to face everyday changes... Eventhough I wanted to cry... My tears won't just fall... I'm scared...

friend?

Lots have happened... Many memories had been created... But when I looked back to those memories I could see my self smile but then in a just a second of smile a sad expression could be seen in my face. And then... I would tell myself to stop thinking of the past. Why? Because most of them would remind me of pain. I know I should forget them by now and others may even said that I'm naive of keeping myself stuck to those memories and that I should just move on and let go and throw the pain away... But I just can't help thinking about all of it, it maybe easy for others but it ain't for me. The reason? Because there are still a lot of questions that have not been answered by the people who are part of that memory.




P.S. Friends? I wish I know how you think of me? Am I just needed because I have something to give? Or am I really your friend because I am just me even though I have nothing? I still don't understand especially now that...
I wanted someone to talk but I can't talk to any of you because I don't know if you want to listen to me.
I wanted someone to talk but I don't know how to tell you... And if I tell you, would you gladly listen or would you listen just because you are forced to listen?
Everythings change... Before I can talk to you about anything but now I'm pushed back!















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