Saturday, July 31, 2010
sadness
no one would understand my sadness... It's bcoz for a person like me, I would always be viewed as a selfish person...
Fairytale love
Fairytale... It's always loved by little girls... Some dreamed to have one in their life... Some successfully experienced it... Some failed and was disappointed by it... Some are trying again and again, still hoping to someday find it... Some had forgotten about it... And some never had it in their life... Coz not everyone was lucky...
To those who had lived their life like fairytale, most of them maybe are happy, some maybe sad or disappointed or whatever... But to those who never had any of it... What would be the feeling? Would it be sadder that those who had it but failed? Or it would be a lot happier? .... For me... It would be empty... I don't know any word that could describe the feeling... I guess the perfect word is empty... Just like the feeling that you're heart never beats blood, coz even when you try touching your chest, you can never feel your heart beat... It's as if you're numb all over... As if your a living dead... Not capable of loving because your heart is not beating!
To those who had lived their life like fairytale, most of them maybe are happy, some maybe sad or disappointed or whatever... But to those who never had any of it... What would be the feeling? Would it be sadder that those who had it but failed? Or it would be a lot happier? .... For me... It would be empty... I don't know any word that could describe the feeling... I guess the perfect word is empty... Just like the feeling that you're heart never beats blood, coz even when you try touching your chest, you can never feel your heart beat... It's as if you're numb all over... As if your a living dead... Not capable of loving because your heart is not beating!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
i never wanted this to last...
does anyone wanted that they suffer from one sided love?
Does someone who silently love somebody wanted to stay in that place forever?
Does somebody else who fell in love pushes their self to choose the person their loving?
All my answer to these questions was stated and written in my mind 4 months ago... But still here I am... Undecided if the answers that I have given could truly be the one that I am hoping that it should be...
This blog was just like my feelings... Topsy-turvy... Not direct to what I wanted to say, no one could ever understand this... Just like what I'm feeling...my love...I guess... No one could ever understand it, coz' even myself at times wonder... This stupid feeling, this stupid heart... No one would ever know what it really felt! Coz I've tried for so long.. But I was never been successful... and I'm tired of trying to think about it anymore...
Does someone who silently love somebody wanted to stay in that place forever?
Does somebody else who fell in love pushes their self to choose the person their loving?
All my answer to these questions was stated and written in my mind 4 months ago... But still here I am... Undecided if the answers that I have given could truly be the one that I am hoping that it should be...
This blog was just like my feelings... Topsy-turvy... Not direct to what I wanted to say, no one could ever understand this... Just like what I'm feeling...my love...I guess... No one could ever understand it, coz' even myself at times wonder... This stupid feeling, this stupid heart... No one would ever know what it really felt! Coz I've tried for so long.. But I was never been successful... and I'm tired of trying to think about it anymore...
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